This year as I read this week’s Torah portion a three-word phrase leapt out at me. It comes after the part about how Noah built the ark, and all the animals that he collected inside it — between all of those descriptions, and the Flood itself. ויסגור ה’ בעדו: “And God shut him in.”
Rashi notes that the literal meaning of this phrase is that God closed the door of the ark behind Noah, protecting him from the waters that would rage outside the door. The commentator known as the Radak writes that “God protected him against the chance of even a small hole opening in the ark as a result of the powerful rains.” One way or another, this verse seems to be saying something about God protecting Noah and keeping him safe through the storm.
As the cold weather approaches, we — like Noah — batten down the hatches. Maybe we tinker with our storm windows, spray insulation into cracks and crevices, put an extra blanket on the bed. If that’s true as we anticipate literal storms, how much more true as we anticiapte emotional and spiritual storms. Every life has periods of turbulent waters. As we face those waters, we yearn to be cared-for and tucked-in, to have God’s presence securing and protecting us.
I’m not a sailor, but I know that when big storms arise sometimes the only way through is to lower sail and let the storm rage. Often storms move us to new places: as the winds and currents can move a boat into new waters, when emotional currents surge strong they may carry us to places we didn’t expect. Authentic spiritual life asks us to weigh anchor and let ourselves be moved, trusting that even when external circumstances are swirling around us we can touch stillness and eternity.
One of the reasons to maintain spiritual practices when the sailing is smooth is so that those practices are there to sustain and protect us when storms pick up. If I remind myself every morning to pause to articulate gratitude for being alive, then maybe when the tough mornings come the habit will be engrained enough to carry me through. If I pause before sleep to try to let go of the day’s mistakes and hurts, then maybe I can wake into the infinite possibility of the new day, even when sleep came on the heels of weeping.
How can we feel secured and protected, as Noah might have felt when God lovingly closed the door behind him? Maybe it’s a phone call or a text message from a friend reminding us that we’re not alone. Maybe it’s reading an essay that makes us feel seen and understood in who we most deeply are. Maybe it’s putting on a piece of jewelry that feels like a talisman. Maybe it’s a session with a therapist who reminds us that our stories matter, or a spiritual director who companions us in our journeying.
Our liturgy tells us that we are loved by an unending love, an אהבת עולם. For me, the presence of that love is what secures the door and keeps me safe from the storm. Sometimes I catch a glimpse of that love in the love I feel for my child, or the love he feels for me. Sometimes I brush up against it in the connection between me and my most beloved friends. Sometimes I feel that love manifest in the extraordinary beauty of creation, in the rise of early morning light over our hills now dressed in November’s muted palette or the calliope song of geese migrating overhead at dusk.
What makes you feel seen and cared-for? What carries you safely through life’s storms?
This is the d’var Torah that Rabbi Rachel offered at CBI Shabbes. (Cross-posted to Velveteen Rabbi.)